Peace & clarity

I feel I overreacted following the NKOTB concert. I was very upset, and felt I had been snubbed, which really hurt my feelings. Now that the weekend is over and I have had some time to reflect, I don't think that was the case. I was on emotional overload after experiencing practically every emotion possible in less than 24 hours. I started the day anxious, excited, nervous, and by the end of the day had also experienced joy, sadness, & disappointment. Not having time to process all of those feelings, and not having much to eat that day either, left me feeling bummed out and confused. I cried the whole way home the next day and I think now that was the result of how overwhelmed I was over the previous day, and not really over sadness. I still love Donnie & NKOTB and don't blame him or the other guys in any way for doing anything wrong. They didn't. I just shouldn't have taken it so personally when I didn't get a chance to talk to Donnie at the after party. Maybe it just wasn't my time. I wish I had stayed longer & enjoyed the atmosphere instead of pouting about it and leaving. Maybe by leaving early I gave up my chance to talk to Donnie. Maybe it would've eventually been my turn. Now I will never know. Hopefully I get another chance in the future to say Hi, introduce myself, and thank him for everything he has meant to me throughout the years. And I not, I was closer to him for 30 seconds than some people may ever have a chance to be, and I am thankful for the little time I did have. My shirt still holds the remnants of whatever cologne or body wash Donnie used that day, and I haven't been able to wash it yet...I might not wash that shirt for a long time. So Donnie, if you read my pissed off tweets after Detroit, or you ever read my blog, I am sorry. I believe you do love your fans, and it must be hard to show each individual fan of the millions you have. #loveeternal